Rainy Day

So, I am going to give this blogging thing a whirl....what else is there to do when it is pouring down rain outside??? I suppose I could be reorganizing the closet....cleaning out kitchen cabinets even? But...nah! What fun is that? It has been storming outside since about 8:30 this morning. The thunder and rain should be calming and soothing, right? Well, not when you have two big fraidy cat dogs (how does that happen anyway?! DOGS who are fraidy CATS??? Hmmm.) who jump on top of you every single time the thunder claps....I feel like such a meanie but after the fifth time I am like "KNOCK IT OFF AND GO LAY DOWN!" Sheesh. I have limited patience available on my best day...and today isn't my best.

I am trying really, really, really HARD not to let something get to me...something I shouldn't have even seen today- but I am so stubborn and hard headed, I couldn't resist. I am under "strict orders" (or "strick orders" if you are Ms. Florey) not to work while I am on vacation. For anyone who has known me for any length of time in my adult life....you will know that this is next to impossible for me...I am just not wired that way. I didn't realize until about 2 years ago that I wasn't just simply a workaholic, obsessive, freak (ahem to those who might think otherwise)...but rather this is an INHERITED condition and I got it from my dad. He is as compulsive with his email and text messages as I am. My sister isn't far behind...so there you have it, it is in the blood so to speak.

Being the workaholic, obsessive, freak that I am....I checked my email. And what I read didn't only shock me. It hurt me. Hurt my feelings! I am trying to rationalize what I read...trying to make sure I am not being overly sensitive...and trying to remember, I shouldn't have seen what I saw for another 10 days...perhaps this was my punishment for violating those "strick orders"? Or perhaps it is just the tough love I have been promised to help me take care of me...My brain is whirling, trying to make sense of it....trying to process it...trying not to let work interfere in what I believe are honest and true friendships.

So, anyway, I suppose I will go back to enjoying my lazy day of rain, tv, and napping...and try to put the unpleasantness I came across on the back burner for now.

Hopefully, my next blog will be slightly more entertaining. But- WHEW- the first one is behind me! Yipee! :-)))))